Getcha Head In the Game...

Okay you guys... remember earlier in the year when I maligned the pop phenomenon that is Disney's High School Musical? Well guess who is directing HSMjr? Yes, me as part of a class I start teaching next week!

Left Brain (tm) would have an aneurism if he knew he allowed me to change my work schedule at Ye Olde to direct middle schooler in HSM. I think it is poetic justice.. and frankly going to be whole lot of fun.

The opportunities just keep on comin' AMEN. Maybe soon, there will be enough of those that I wont even need Ye Olde to sustain.

I guess I gotta " get my head in the game". Yeah, trust me I went there.

And for some truly fun HSM stuff, check out this video from University of Michigan Musical Theatre students - FUN - E.

We're all in this together.

The Grey Elephant

I haven't been going to church.

Haven't been for most of the summer. Partially because my schedule was so messed up this summer and partially because I just didnt want to be there.

Nothing against the church. I love NCC and it is filled with amazing people. It's about me and my own hang ups.

I was trying to get back into it and to go back to service... so today, I decided to listen to one of the webcasts. It would be the one where my beloved PM says the statement that homosexuality is wrong. The whole rest of the sermon is focused on the issue of alcohol, but that one statement made me so sad.

I don't want to be in this place. I am trapped in a place where legalism/moralism whatever you want to call it, threatens to make me separate from people who saved my life. How do I love and support my friends, my urban family and stay faithful? This is so heartbreaking.

So much so that I want to shut it away. Like I have done with so many things in my life. I don't know how to deal with this.

I am left lonely and afraid about this. I want help, I dont want help. I want to be left alone. I want to turn of the voice of PM and pretend that I dont hear him.

Opening Night

Okay. It's open.

The Wiz is almost in the past. Last night, I ended up gathering a basic black outfit out of my closet, just in case. Good thing I did, because when I got to the theatre.... I had no costume - on OPENING NIGHT. People. I am not kidding. They seemed so unconcerned about it too. That was when I shut down. I was, like, y'all get what you get. I was so mad.

After the show, the AD comes to me and says " This worked out better anyway... you looked great." WHAT! I almost blew a gasket. And when the director came over to me and tried to throw his arms around me and congratulate me, I had to ask him not to do that. Now, I know that isnt Christian of me... but I couldnt pretend that I was happy about the way it all turned out.

I need some sleep and I need this to be over.

Um, I dont know what happened tonight.

Earlier today, I sent an email to the powers that be asking if someone had secured a costume for me. I got an email back stating " Oh, we forgot about you." uh huh.

I got to the theatre and someone excitedly told me that they had something for me to try on. It was a "halloween store" witches costume...which did not fit. I did the run ..it was rough. I wont lie... I am not sure this is a good show. There are some really talented folk in the show. There are some good moments. But overall... this is turning out to be a "short bus" collision.

I can't even seem to remember the words to the one song I sing. Lord, help us.

Who had an anxiety attack in a dance studio?

Why that would be me. The whole Wiz process is driving me batty. I feel less prepared for this show than anything else I have ever done in my life. And it just doesnt seem to matter. It's like a dance recital gone horribly wrong. I just dont know, people... I just dont know.

I dont think I will be inviting anyone to this.